Doktor? Nein!

While I was on the bus heading into town for my doctors appointment, I called the clinic to see how far behind my doctor was running as I had a few other things to do. She wasn't in though and they had the wrong phone number for me and couldn't tell me that they'd booked me in for the same time with another doctor... a doctor I saw in the past who wrote me a script then I changed the date on it, making it invalid and a total stuffed-up waste of time... so no luck there.

I returned to reception, told them that consultation wasn't to be charged for, and that I need to see another doctor who would prescribe Schedule-8 drugs, so I have another time for later today with a doctor I have not yet seen before, but am still a little anxious, feeling like I won't get any. It's been ten days since I got a script, I should have ten days left, but I am all out and really really need it at this current point in life to go do positive things with my life until I get to the comfort level where the drugs can FINALLY lay the hell off! Get away from thee, Satan!!! So if I spin a good story, hopefully I get them, or at the least they write a script but forward date it... and this time I won't be changing it as I now fully understand how the pharmacy/doctor relations work with these types of medications...

So, good luck to me!!! I have prayed through the intercession of Our Lady and also St. Maximillian Kolbe, patron of drugs, to help me when (if) I get the script, that I can only limit myself to the daily prescribed dose and be a good boy, not having to run out! Otherwise, I will find it extremelly difficult to do things I WANT TO DO and will also be GOOD FOR MY RECOVERY!!!

If I don't get it, I can't go to Emergency as they won't do it... perhaps the only choice left after that is Nolan House? But I don't have a reason as to why I want to top myself, so don't like my chances of that... living in a prison basically just to get my daily fix of medication... perhaps I can down a box of my anti-depressants? They're the highest dose and I only just picked them up this morning, so only one missing! That may land me in there! Hopefully it doesn't come to that though...

Bureaucracy sucks, especially when it interferes with peoples medical recovery!!!