Moooorning!

Feels like I am sixteen again... sitting in a dark, dingy little flat, tele going but on mute with music blaring from the speakers as I smoke cigarettes and drink coffee after coffee... and smoke dope too...

Sometimes I wish I were that age again... life seemed hard then but in perspective was nothing compared to now. It was such an effort to sign on and even write this post - and the laptop was handed to me, internet connected and already still signed in on Blogger from yesterday... depression sucks. I am controlled by this huge pill that erases all emotion, feeling and fun. I want to get off them... then I'll just want to neck myself! Hmm decisions decisions...