Slackin' off

ABOVE: One of my most recent sketches. 1st February, 2010.

It's been quite some time since I've blogged. Sad, init? Pretty much haven't written two-hoots since the year began, but that will change. You see, I always go through stages with everything in life - blogging, writing, drawing - everything. I get the ball rolling and can't stop, writing a-million entries in one day, then - BANG - nothing for days, weeks, even months at time.

Yesterday I saw the doktor and got some new scripts for my Endone and Valium. Picked up a couple days worth of each as I didn't have the cash to buy them. Today I bit the bullet, decided to take my phone into the pawn-brokers to get some cash for my scripts and a pack of smokes... I just removed my sim-card and put it into another phone of mine. Easy. I only got $25, but it was enough for a 30-pack of Pall Mall, and the Endone and Valium.

Now I am happy, motivated, bright - the world is my oyster. Without Endone - or any Oxycodone for that matter - I live a hopeless, depressive, messy existence... and my GP wants me to come of the Endone. First she wanted to take me down to one 5mg tab, but I piped up saying I'd rather get off the Valium first, which will be another two months. When she finally decides to put the hard-word on me and take me down to 5mg, I'm just going to let it all out - tell her that it's the only way I get motivated to do things - from artwork, to reading, to cooking and cleaning. Screwy, especially given that 10mg is stuff-all.

My GP's theory is that if you get a euphoric high off Oxy, you're O.D'ing... also believes that pain lasts for six-weeks, anything after that is just "phantom" pain. A load of shit. She's no pain-doktor, so what would she know? Just a "new age" one into all the alternative therapies such as hypnosis and the likes, and quite anti-drugs... which makes me think - If one is so against drugs, why the hell become a GP? They just pull the wool over your eyes then. They say things such as "You're too young to be on this, you have the whole world ahead of you" - my thoughts are the exact opposite. Sure, I have my whole life ahead, but at least when I am under the influence of any Oxy-based drugs, then I have my whole life ahead.

Moving along from my little rant about the dok, which has been going on for the last week...

So I have had some Endone's today and feeling great - motivated to do some things. I've done some artwork over the days, and I am now getting ready to start sketching some of my favourite pieces of artwork into a large visual diary, hoping that they will turn out just as good as the small versions, then I will frame them to give my flat a little more personal, individual character.

First up is a re-sketch of St. Patrick's Cathedral (minor basilica) in Melbourne - one of my favourite, if not my favourite, church anywhere. I love it - so big, such beautiful architecture and gardens, not to mention the inside of it. I've already made two sketches of it - a greylead one in an A4 V.D, another done in black fine-liner in the smaller sized V.D - now onto the large, A3 size, either fineliner, or perhaps shaded to give it the black and white effect.

I'm just bracing myself for study - start next Wednesday - a week from today. Three full days - Wednesday, Thursday and Friday, 9am to 3 or 4pm. I'm studying Certificate III Visual Arts and Contemporary Craft. I can't wait to get back into the study side of things, it will be great, and no doubt I will eventually have a group of like-minded people to hang out with.

Now, it is time to have a coffee and cigarette before I settle down here on the couch, putting pencil-to-paper and sketching the magnificent building that is St. Patrick's Cathedral - the Mother Church of the Melbourne Archdiocese.